Disturbed

She wants to shout and cry
But stops herself
She wants to run and hide
But finds herself bound
She wants to smile and dance
But her body won't move
She wants to live and love
But discovers that they won't let her
She wants to just lie and sleep
And for once, this she can.

Dawn

Crimson cracks of light

breaking in through

Everything's a silhouette

on this beautiful tuesday morn'

The occasional grunt of a motor

passing by the road

Chirping of the flying ones

perched on pretty trees

Smoke willowing from my hand

making ribbons as they dissolve

Cool breeze of the dawn

caressing my skin

soothing my worn eyes

The days grows onto me

Step by step..

Second by second

5:45 am, 22 march,2011

Often , we take relationships for granted. We consider some people- a friend, a lover, a sibling, a parent, our own. We fear losing our loved ones, yet we make the mistake. We don't mean to. Don't they know ? We love them. Its an unspoken promise. Of being there. That's the bond.

Loved you, I did

With all my heart

I tried so hard

To keep you close

Yet drifted apart

by little things

Did they matter so much

I ask myself

There's a spark somewhere

Telling me otherwise

A hope of something bigger

It will be alright

Consoling and soothing

myself, I hope

The butterfly effect!

The name itself captures me!

The butterfly effect is a metaphor that encapsulates the concept of sensitive dependence on initial conditions in chaos theory; namely a small change at one place in a complex system can have large effects elsewhere. Although this may appear to be an esoteric and unusual behavior, it is exhibited by very simple systems: for example, a ball placed at the crest of a hill might roll into any of several valleys depending on slight differences in initial position. The butterfly effect is a common trope in fiction when presenting scenarios involving time travel and with "what if" cases where one storyline diverges at the moment of a seemingly minor event resulting in two significantly different outcomes.

The phrase refers to the idea that a butterfly's wings might create tiny changes in the atmosphere that may ultimately alter the path of a tornado or delay, accelerate or even prevent the occurrence of a tornado in a certain location. The flapping wing represents a small change in the initial condition of the system, which causes a chain of events leading to large-scale alterations of events (compare: domino effect). Had the butterfly not flapped its wings, the trajectory of the system might have been vastly different. While the butterfly does not "cause" the tornado in the sense of providing the energy for the tornado, it does "cause" it in the sense that the flap of its wings is an essential part of the initial conditions resulting in a tornado, and without that flap that particular tornado would not have existed.

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In the darkness before the dawn
Striving to embark upon
Travel to lands far & near
Hope and mystery in my heart

Leaves had withered
fallen below
Gray was on its way
pushed out and blown away
The winds were changing..
promising resurrection

With spirits roaring
and restless bodies
Charging at the world we go
Searching for the light at the end of the tunnel
Calling me out so !

Random stuff

Upto the brim, but not quite
With joy and with distress
Love, and with loathe
The surface deceives
Heart bottled inside

What ll it take?
For the fire to burn
The flames to rise
Ashes to gather
and hollow withtin?