The darkness of the uninviting night,
the insanity of that cold time,
the mystery of binding ties,
the freedom of flying thoughts,
perplexing deep within...
Drawing everything in...
Into the depth of life itself..
Lighting the channel to the place where you chase yourself! To your asylum!
Go, oh dear one, succumb to your soul!
22.6.07
The forbidding light-blinding vision
a dark shadow in itself
The scattered dawn breaking the blue mist
The flames of life reaching for the sky
inspiring death with an ironic smile
Challenging destiny!
1.7.2007
Friday, February 6, 2009
#1
Conforming minds and broken hearts, engulfing me, swallowing me within
Tying me down as a feathered beast in a cage
Holding my power, stabbing my pride
They try, not to succeed
to kill that is safe in my soul
To witness the glory,
the colossal strength
Give them a heart, unfearing as mine
I lay low in quiet surrender
Only to gather all that is within
So warn them o winds!
Of the heading storm, of its rage and beauty,
Of its challenge to this world, of its promise to this life !
2007
Tying me down as a feathered beast in a cage
Holding my power, stabbing my pride
They try, not to succeed
to kill that is safe in my soul
To witness the glory,
the colossal strength
Give them a heart, unfearing as mine
I lay low in quiet surrender
Only to gather all that is within
So warn them o winds!
Of the heading storm, of its rage and beauty,
Of its challenge to this world, of its promise to this life !
2007
Thursday, February 5, 2009
2345 hours
It's 11:45 pm... N i'm waiting.
It's 1:40 am now.. my brother is back home. it was him i was waiting for.
Here's an experience to share..jut thought of it..
Something creepy happened a couple of days back.
I'd fallen asleep..n i was woken up 45mins later by a eery feeling.. i'd felt the tips of 3 fingers run across the side of my neck slowly.. i remember clearly.. i 'felt' that touch.. N i opened my eyes..awake now..turned my head slowly to that exposed part of my neck... Nothing..
I went back to sleep after 5mins or so...but i admit when i think about it, it is kinda creepy. i dunno what caused it.
I used to believe that life is 'subconscious makebelieve'. Its what we think there is, is.
Sometimes I think that what are we living fo? whats the purpose of our existence? these are probably the days when i'm feeling gloomy..
we are born, we live, we survive, we die. that is it?
On happier days, i think this is how life should be .. be happy with the people you're with, have fun, do your work well.. just be happy!
n there is this third person who's overlooking both these sides of me.. its feels strange sometimes. passive.
It's 1:40 am now.. my brother is back home. it was him i was waiting for.
Here's an experience to share..jut thought of it..
Something creepy happened a couple of days back.
I'd fallen asleep..n i was woken up 45mins later by a eery feeling.. i'd felt the tips of 3 fingers run across the side of my neck slowly.. i remember clearly.. i 'felt' that touch.. N i opened my eyes..awake now..turned my head slowly to that exposed part of my neck... Nothing..
I went back to sleep after 5mins or so...but i admit when i think about it, it is kinda creepy. i dunno what caused it.
I used to believe that life is 'subconscious makebelieve'. Its what we think there is, is.
Sometimes I think that what are we living fo? whats the purpose of our existence? these are probably the days when i'm feeling gloomy..
we are born, we live, we survive, we die. that is it?
On happier days, i think this is how life should be .. be happy with the people you're with, have fun, do your work well.. just be happy!
n there is this third person who's overlooking both these sides of me.. its feels strange sometimes. passive.
Get Set Go
Well this is the beginning.. Hello.
I have seen n experienced that everytime I start out to do something n set it firm in my head, or maybe not so firm, but start out nevertheless, I'm faced with obstacles..hurdles..whatever you call it. It is disheartening sometimes.
I hope this beginning doesn't turn out the same way for me. I started to write this blog (and I had thought about it a few times before , but never did it) for a simple reason, I like to write. It's like an outlet of sorts for me. for any writer i guess. or blogger.
Heck..! There is such a lot of noise in the background all day! I can hear 3 adults discussing something right now..each voicing their own ideas..you know adults..esp when they're over 50..! I'm at home these days..chaos in the day n too quiet at night..it's quite a contrast.. Today, I was woken up to the sound of my mother yelling at the top of her voice at one of the construction guys..some work going on here. Not pleasant.
What followed was nice though..bed tea n a phone call with a loving voice at the other end.
I just thought about it.. I haven't smoked for over a week now.. The taste of a cigarette in between sips of some nice coffee..ummm... !
The adults are still arguing..discussing..whatever..
I'm so jobless right now.. 2 weeks back, I was going mad in college.. this work that work this class this assignment this case that patient.. maybe I make too much out of it, but it gets to me sometimes. Its exasperating.. there is so much wrong at each level.. which ultimately comes down to the system. haha. the great system!
I have to go get tea.. this post was very random i realize. Will catch you later.
Tea.. i miss my chai wala sutta. ah!
later..!
I have seen n experienced that everytime I start out to do something n set it firm in my head, or maybe not so firm, but start out nevertheless, I'm faced with obstacles..hurdles..whatever you call it. It is disheartening sometimes.
I hope this beginning doesn't turn out the same way for me. I started to write this blog (and I had thought about it a few times before , but never did it) for a simple reason, I like to write. It's like an outlet of sorts for me. for any writer i guess. or blogger.
Heck..! There is such a lot of noise in the background all day! I can hear 3 adults discussing something right now..each voicing their own ideas..you know adults..esp when they're over 50..! I'm at home these days..chaos in the day n too quiet at night..it's quite a contrast.. Today, I was woken up to the sound of my mother yelling at the top of her voice at one of the construction guys..some work going on here. Not pleasant.
What followed was nice though..bed tea n a phone call with a loving voice at the other end.
I just thought about it.. I haven't smoked for over a week now.. The taste of a cigarette in between sips of some nice coffee..ummm... !
The adults are still arguing..discussing..whatever..
I'm so jobless right now.. 2 weeks back, I was going mad in college.. this work that work this class this assignment this case that patient.. maybe I make too much out of it, but it gets to me sometimes. Its exasperating.. there is so much wrong at each level.. which ultimately comes down to the system. haha. the great system!
I have to go get tea.. this post was very random i realize. Will catch you later.
Tea.. i miss my chai wala sutta. ah!
later..!
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